As promised...the long since gobbled up mousey!

Oh the blessness of it all. The size of a monkey nut and hopped like a kangeroo ratty! Not even gonna rival fb's fab pictures of his squeeking wonders but cute to the ute.

Work continues to be crazy. So many sick patients and unfortunately on wed night I had to say goodbye to a patient I have cared for since April this year. An incredible lady who had had so many complications related to bowel surgery and got to the point where all the markers of her health were going down. I am not back to work until sat night and I doubt she will still be alive. It has been quite emotional for me as I got to know her and her husband very well in the past months. He has been amazing in his strength but unfortunately neither are saved. This lady has the most challenging abdomen I have seen in that she had an ileostomy, urostomy and between the two a wound which a fistula tracked into and out of. I spent hours by her bedside pioneering new ways to create a bag which would channel products out and away from her instead of leaking and ruining her skin. I have now been elected stoma nurse link nurse because of my bag skilz, that I owe to God for giving me an artistic and creative eye. Anyhoo after months of treatment she could fight no more and I cannot describe the utter desolation in hearing her cry when her fate dawned upon her. It is in some ways a saving grace that near the end consciouness is fleeting. On wednesday night I shook her husbands hand, hugged him and gave her a kiss and said goodbye for the last time. What more could I do than show my respect for such a fighter and her loyal husband. I am gutted when I reflect upon it but at least I can say I gave her my very best when I cared for her and that her death if she has not already died will be one of dignity and physical comfort. I know my colleagues do not know of this blog but I salute their dedication and the quality of care that we as a team have given her. Amen.

Not blogged for a while.......

In response to a certain rambling mother in Devon the reason I have not blogged for a while is not due to excessive driving of my new whip, it is because I have been busy innit and not sat in front of the comp for a while. I think it was having to write a 7000 word assignment that put me off! Anyhoo, that is done and I now await the results. Another body soul and time consuming issue in my nursing life recently has been having to deal with a failing student. I had never dealt with one before so the time spent in assessing her and writing up action plans for her has been huge. Work has been crazy of late with poor staffing and very sick patients so having to continuosly work with this lady really drained me. Thankfully she has finished now and yes I had to fail her but I got good support from the university and it has been a steep learning curve. I am now a lot more aware of the importance of my signature in relation to the progress of students. Unfortunately those who mentored her before neglected this duty causing her to think she was doing fine when in fact she was barely making the mark. It make me shudder to think the kind of people who are being allowed into nursing and scraping through. One good thing is that the continous NHS cuts are making jobs be fought for more so that the better nurses should get them. We can hope.

Just a note on FBs recent blog as I don't like getting involved in wranglings but I wish people would think before they opened their mouths or tapped on a keyboard. Heck I wish I would more but when I see more and more the strife which exists throughout our country within churches and how badly some Christians treat other it is so disheartening. How are we supposed to reach others when back stabbing and bad feeling exists. Aren't we all working for the same King, for the same goal and ultimately for a life not yet seen? All I want to say is that the society we live in now has affected too many Christians for the worse. Behaviour whether conciously or not has been adopted and how much the hater of souls must love seeing it. As FB said, quoting a welsh pastor, the plane of revival cannot land if the runway is full of rubbish. Lets clear it friends.

On a lighter note I was walking to pick up my bike from being serviced in preparation for my 4 hours cycling on the recent bank holiday monday when I looked down where I was going to step and saw a little blob. It didn't quite look like a leaf so I quickly altered the trajectory of my incoming foot to the side and crouched down to have a look. To my surprise there beneath my eyeballs was the tiniest lickle mouse I ever did see. It looked at me with its big black eyes and then hopped to the side. I got out my mobile and snapped the little fella thanking the fact I had not squished it under my shoe. That would have caused some severe psychological trauma if I had sacrificed it! Oh the thought of it makes my skin crawl! Anyhoo it hopped off somewhere no doubt to be yammed by a cat... For whatever reason I cannot upload the picture of it so I will keep trying........